another 25th ....

Thank God its Friday yet once again - where did all that time go??? August is coming to an end i am so glad that it is .. some things this month i dont wish to remember actually i seem to have forgotten them ..yay me!.. a little after 7 am getting ready rather ready for work just waiting to leave enjoying my cuppa hoping that i could see you know who before i left hahahah wishful thinking i guess.. it seems when i am around and when he is i am not - oh lord what luck .. but anyways ....... another 25th- it sems everytime a 25th arrives my thougths are brought back to that 25th in october 05 ....... ahh yes sheer bliss .. memories .. the meeting that would and have changed my life .. heehee how dramatic am i this morning .. i think i woke up on a positive note considering how on edge i was last night - i had to ask people to approach me with caution .. it seems like last night every little thing agitated me and i was close to tears - *wonders if its the new moon or the pms or maybe just a coupling of the 2 * i slept pretty early - so i dont have to deal with anything heehee i just hope i didnt miss 'C' cos i know imssed him earlier yesterday evening ..... i think this week went relatively fast - maybe because i had two days leave from work only because i was not in the country .. i hope next week passes just as fast and then voila its the school holidays a total of 10 days ... ill take 10 days over no days anytime ....... time to recharge my batteries because i am going to be one extra busy bee after that .............. i think september in itself will be a busy month .. the busier the better i think ....

i sometimes wonder how can someone youve never met have such an impact on your life - i maye have had a diffrent perception sometime back but now i am more wondering- trying to grapple and what not .. trying to make sense of things - will it ever make sense or maybe it isnt just meant to make sense of ... someone sent me an email ............. that silly guy from 43things ..... hmmmm .. my earlier refrence was obviously directed at 'c' .. anyways i am just saying right now i feel safe in my little world .. it seems to be free of a lot of things for the most part and in any given world you have your occasioanl flu or fever outbreak and it goes the same for mine except mine comes in the form of certain hurts agitations and tears but none the less its a happy world - my natural high helps sometimes and just being able to see little things and to be able to enjoy time with 'c' no matter how little it is ... i sometimes wonder if he knows how much that means to me ... anyways i am just saying i am not really sure i am ready to have anyone else enter my little world .... unless they are alredy a part of that world ............. as i type this i am already making a to do list in my mind ......

to do list .........
1. call ira
2. arrange k & h's wedding pictures . scan dinner menu & invitation cards
3. create menu for dinner party
4. laundry laundry & more laundry
5. do more uncluttering ....

i realize when my spirits are high i tend to talk more and just talk - its weird i think cos i think i am pretty quiet most of the time .. when i am in higher spirits it seems like im like an open book .. i am trying to decipher myself i am way complicated for my own good ........ un complex me please somebody anybody ...

sigh my never ending processing mind ....... on its doing something its thinking of another thing .. anyways time to jet - i think ill stop by starbucks for my caffeine boost - havent done that in a while ... umm err coffee anyone ? ..................