the wonderings back ..

you know one of those nights where the longing is more than usual and when the missing is more than usual - today seem to be it. havent heard from him in a week or so .. just hope that he is doing ok - i mean no reason to worry now right he is not longer in Iraq ...

its just the days of wondering what he is up too with whom (that lucky person) .... and what not .. is he back at work ? has he gotten his glasses - is he doing all the things he wanted to do ?? did he take any of the job offers? is he back still in the army or retired - has he gotten his harley and is now travelling around the country? .. so many questions .... i guess its the little things that counts the most .....

speaking of longing - guess who walked into my dreams last night? hahahah mr c himself .. it felt so real yet was just a dream - now if i if i had just taken my vitamin b6 the night before i may have actually remembered my dreams more vividly ... well i guess i really miss him and talking to him ... i probably should stop thinking but if i quit cold turkey odds are it will come back .......

optimism has to be the key - key to the endless wonderings hopefully he is keeping himself happy slowly but surely re adapting back to civilian life - sometimes i wonder what is going through his mind at this time , how he is feeling and everything esle and i do wonder if he wonders or thinks about me i mean i understand what he dont feel about me but you know sometimes you do wonder about people you dont feel anything for .. call it human nature call it groovie's nature ...

'C' is my little portal of useless information - yup he knows a lot sometimes i wonder if he is just joking around or for real but for the most part all that he says seems to make sense ...

i wish i wish id get a chance to talk to him sometime soon .. (closes eyes n wishes hard.........)

while battling invisible bugs - i am wondering what his personal battles are if not any ...

i found this quote while surfing online ,,, how true is this .........

'Love is like war ... easy to begin but very hard to stop ........'