brief moment again ...

That brief moment in time again .. I felt he was online again - and yay he was ..... sometimes these feelings of him being there without me seeing him online or him sending me a message first is hard to explain ... - but its just there .. freaky i know .. scary too ..

i was all smiles when 'c' was here , he seem fine / happy - giggly and what not just one of the ways i like him - he seems to be an all round happy person and i love that about him in spite of what he has to deal with on a daily basis and all that he has gone through but a person can always hide it behind the smiles the laughter and the jokes and it is the same with him ..... he donest know howmuch i read him - to him i dont but sometimes he underestimates my undestanding of him but its ok though .....

i hope i see him before i leave for cousins house next week or so ... i know id miss him bunches even more - dont even know if id have the internet while im there but none the less i still hope i see him again after today .. even for a brief moment - these moments are enough to give me a pick me up until the next time i see him heehee .....

the most important for me i think when i see him online and gets a message from him is knowing that he is doing ok seeing how things are getting worst iraq - i worry duh lol .... seeing him lets me know he is ok .. sometimes i wonder if he even knows how much i care about him .. i know that even if he is hurt he would never tell me - cos he wnow i would worry - i am such the worry bug ... heh heh