Somewhere out there ...

when all you can do is wonder about that person way somewhere out there... ..... i wonder where i wonder how ... the mind raises many questions ...... i think the worst thing right now is not knowing anything .... being in the dark .. the speculations .. the everythings .... things that were said pop in your head ... the times you had ... ...the heart aches ... you go about life a day at a time not knowing if and when you will talk to that person again .. it seems like forever right now and the feeling isnt going away that is for sure ... you miss more .. i wait .. for a note a message an email .. just to get the know ...... its been 12 days or 13 if i counted the brief few minutes and the last time i talked to him midnight of may 2nd .... ......

all i can envision him out in the desert, somewhere out there doing what he does best ..... and pray that he is kept safe & protected ....................

thinking .... thinking ... thinking .....

the dreams dont stop ..... ive had dreams of him alot .. he doesnt say anything in the dream ... he is just there watching .... his presence offers a kind of peace in my dreams ..... hispresence is so real ... i guess the sad thing is to wake up knowing it was all just a dream .....