-- intensity...

if there were any 2 days to make up for all the stress ive put myself through those days would have been today & yesterday.. I smiled i laughed and just pretty much had a good time - sometimes it feels like stress just melted away and i was worriless (sp?) - well not a whole lot at least hahah anyways i was just happy - i guess i am always happy when 'c' comes online and i get to talk to him .. sometimes i think he is dr feel good ... :) all over too.. *winks*.. anyways .. i havent seen him since last thursday and well as usualy i have been thinking alot about him today more than other days - the missing the feelings are all more intensed in recent days ...it happens everytime i seee 'c' - its like an indication of his coming lol i know that probably sounds dramatic lol - sometimes its really hard to explain it - one needs to really experience to fully comprehend what the heck i am rambling about ...
...talking about happiness inspite of being in the melancholy realm of the zodiac i do believe i am all in all a generally happy person - doesnt take much to make me happy and does take a lot to upset me well anyways.. its been a pretty good past three days so i cant complain and the fact that i have a short week just adds to the excitement - 3 and a half day week woo hoo .. 3 days of work and on Thursday its teachers day so we are having celebrations and school functions for half a day actually its less than that more like a few hours then from friday september first school closes for about 10 days - i am really looking forward to that time to recharge and what not .....
... i am all for the fact that the mind is a powerful tool aside from being sexy and what not (yes people with a brain & who actually use it are very very sexy...). What you think sometimes manifests itself - i do believe i read an article about it how thoughts are like prayers so its crucial to think good thoughts always . but anyways.. like i mentioned earlier been a pretty intense past week of just about everything -. Soemtimes the universe feel for your subscious - knwoing what it is that you need or long for what little thing would put a little skip in your walk so hey thanks for paying attention to me invisble forces.. back to the mind - like i said thinking and thinking about 'c' - i do believe i was in front of my pc trying to get inspired and really was in deep thought and guess whose message box popped up .. i was actually shocked but of course happy - i was like wow ... i was just thinking about this man .... and lo and behold he is here .. i was smiling like a jack ass heheee i think if anyones whose been inlove and have that person there after a long absence could possibly relate to what i am rambling about .. . so it was actually a wonderful moment catching up, sharing, joking & just having him there again for a moment in time ........ :) ahhh bless the little things in life .... Thank God for the time ... for that moment was mine to keep ...