A little Midnight Rant

its been a very long week and i think i was just drained - it seems by weeks end i wasnt motivated to do anything -just taken over by sheer letharyg - the weekends time to recuperate - i doubt thats happening lol cos its midnight here and i am still up ... i am behind in many things thats not work related seeing how busy ive been - so yesterday i figued i would just go out and have an iffa day - that didnt happen .... my intention was to go to town, browse for some books at Borders speaking of which i received a 40 percent off voucher from them then head out to starbucks to write some - i did go out but was just wayyyyyyyy too tired and you know the icky feeling of an incoming flu .... to do what i planned - so i had some lunch and came home and laze around reading taking a little nap .. watched a little tv and TA-DA here i am ... I miss writing all together so here i am writing & reading all the nice stuff i am getting on my 360 page & messages from friends - THANK YOU! ..

I had a few minutes blackout a while ago ... it was scary seeing that i am home alone - i tried to switch the air con on and everything shut down :(( wahhhhhh .... i think it blew a fuse cos of the rain - i lite some candles and had to hunt for the main switch lol ... what a time for that to happen lol anyways powers back on lights on now ,,phewwwww!!!

I just had to include my friends Barbs quote on my comment page lol .. Just how true is this ...

If raising children was going to be easy, it never would have started with something called labor!

I guess I know how our parents must feel lol …Thanks Barb for that … Speaking of kids, Leena was just mentioning some things about her kids which made me smile lol .. I guess i deal with the kids antics for like 5 days a week and that in itself is overwhelming - what more parents who have them for a whole week! But lets face it inspite of their misbehaving - there is always something about that that can make us smile - kids they sure do have a way ...

While having lunch today i saw all these young familes with chidren and what not - i would think they were about my age or maybe younger - it was really nice seeing them - makes my heart ache for my own but anyways ... the little boy was calling mommy mommy - i bet his mom was proud of that ..Makes me wonder how she felt the first time he called her mom - i bet it brought tears to her eyes .. sometimes i wonder if i would ever get the chance to hear those words or have a laborous life of bearing & taking care of children ... till i get answers i guess there is always hope

Obviously with the long week i kept missing "C" which really sucks - its funny how when he is there i am not and when i am here he isnt ...... grrrrrrrr just so not fair .. sometimes timezones can be a real pest .. oh well ... like he says maybe later ..