honey im home .. tee hee..

Wedding season is over well for now at least I reckon it will start next month again hahaah no complaints though its fine to take a break from it all .. Anyways im back home in the comforts of my environment my little haven.. Its been a wonderful weekend of weddings, family & relatives I haven’t seen in ages some since I was little …

Its good to be back home though it feel a little weird being back home – if anything things have been weird hah story of my life it seems. I was telling my cousin how I felt like a stranger in my own country lol why I don’t even know – and to think I only spent 5 days in Malaysia – hmmm I wonder what is it about Malaysia that does that to you … umm I might have the answer anyway …

Im back … from a long weekend of weddings and relatives but as exhausted as we were fun was in store none the less. Its good to be back weird too – after being away for that long i feel like I am in a foreign country – a stranger in my own country hahaha I wonder what is it about Malaysia that does that to you hmmmm I think I know heehee.. anyways .. I had a grand time with the family the past five day’s weddings, family. It a was a time of lots of laughter – lots of that I might add knowing the clowns we have in my family .., bonding, some tears and of course reflection.

Its a Tuesday here today and this is the final week of the school holidays – next week is back to the norm of kids and what nots. Just when you’re getting into the holiday groove school starts – hah I was right. So school starts on June 25^th and I have a few days to relax though much of that relaxation was done at grandma’s too.

The wedding was beautiful and the interaction among family was the best one of all. We had family & friends from as far as Belgium and London come down for the wedding. It was a truly international affair – guests were not just local but from all around the world – just as well seeing that the groom is Dutch/Malay – it so fits having an international guest list. We reconnected obviously ..

I think this wedding gives new meaning to big family. In one way or another these relatives have some sort of bond to our family – cousins aunts uncles etc etc .. And some of them were family we never thought we had ;)) … Its like were connected by one central system – cool huh and when we get together we usually bring the house down ;)) …

Admists all the laughter there were some heartfelt and overwhelming moments this in the case of my cousin Omar with his heart problem. It is heartbreaking seeing him like that. I try to fight my tears but they usually flow but I make sure I am not around anyone can’t be sad during a time like that. My aunt have been busy during the wedding and couldn’t spend much time with him and this made him really sad and the pain that he is going through has made him really demanding but can you blame him? We don’t know what he is going through – anyways the rest of us rallied around him giving him the attention, support and love that he needs. What was most heart wrenching was that he craved for the food that was served and he couldn’t have them because of his condition. I don’t think it’s easy for anyone to see a kid who wants something but can’t have it because it will worsen their situation. But being the sweet kid that he is he manages to give us a smile or two.

An aunt visiting from Bogor, Indonesia with her cousin suffered a mild stroke while she was in town. She was already sick when she was back home he kids told her not to come over but she insisted saying she is fine but I guess when she got here it was a different story. On the day after the reception we took her to the doctor and the doctors confirmed a mild stroke. She is still in town getting some treatment before heading home. It’s sad because it’s her daughters’ first trip to this part of the world and being away from home and having a mother who is ill isn’t easy for anyone….

It was actually nice being away from home – even though I have always been to grandma’s its just nice being away from home for more than a day. There was no time for the world aside for our own hence no news no television and no internet. It seems that the people around you were your entertainment. Helping out with the wedding keeps you busy and distracts you from everything else but somewhere in your mind and in your heart that certain someone still lingers..

Anyways when I got home and got ‘connected’ to the world again it seems the world hasn’t changed much if anything its gotten worst. More killings more deaths more violence oh well a moment of sweet escape took me away from the realities life now it’s in my face again but I wont complain because im a safe & peaceful environment unlike the people in the news. But it was great to know that a child porn ring was cracked down and sick individuals were arrested.

Have you ever gotten that feeling when you’re so close to getting your hearts desire, a wish nearly coming true only to not have it happen? I know I have and if anything it’s numbed me . This feeling of missing out on something grand ,wonderful, sweet. It seems fate ,the universe wasn’t really on my side but I guess such is life. I am probably still bummed out about it I don’t know – I am not grumpy maybe just sad ,disappointed I don’t know. I just don’t know …. Where all this is coming from is from the what if’s of a nearly could be encounter with sweetness anyways … so I ask do wishes still come true after this?

I will blog about the wedding within the next few days seeing that I have the daunting task of sorting out the pictures and putting them up as slides so hopefully before school starts I would have written some entries about the long wedding weekend with pictures and with that I end this blog with this quote …

‘ Be glad of life because it gives you a chance to love and to work and to play and look up at the stars’ – Henry van Dyke