sorta ....

The past two weeks "c' was here - but today he is not. I just figured maybe he would be here on 3 Tuesdays in a row i guess it was just wishful thinking on my part....*Sigh* .. i do wonder where he is , if he is ok the usual stuff. Maybe he has moved to a new place with no internet access- maybe this maybe that .. Things seem to be instensying in Iraq according to the media but who knows how bad it is unless you are in there and i have no idea where in Iraq he is .. I am trying to keep a clear mind - clear head - think positive .. He said i was less stressed he would be extra careful - well i am sorta less stressed and i hope he is keeping extra safe ..
i guess feelings fail you sometimes ..... or maybe its because you want them to be online and you wish for that ... sometimes well you just cant explain some things ... and maybe sometime in the near future an answer would be at your disposal till then its all speculations...............

....... hope he is keeping safe ...