a little bit of wondering . a little bit of inspiration

End of the week yay! new moon yay! havent seen 'c' in ages boo hoo!! .. it seems like he just vanished into thin air right after his birthday - i wish i knew what happened to him and knowing me i can only began to speculate what he is up too now .. maybe working maybe vacationing i dont know .. i know its the weekend and i am going to my grandma's in Johore to observe the first day of the fasting month - its tradition to do that - break fast together - my cousins uncles aunties would come from all over malaysia and singapore over to grandma's - its always a full house and thats the way we like it ... this year however it would be a little diffrent and sad because of my late aunt ... its only been about five months
and this would be especially tough for my cousin and my mother - and i m sure that sense of lost will be felt by all - .... This week was another busy week so glad its over and im happy the new moons out this means my creative juices would start
flowing more smoothly (keeping fingers crossed) and hopefully the blue moon would come around soon only because thast when hopefully id get a hello ..( wishing hard ..) ... im sitting here writing this feeling a little numbed out - cos seriously it does feel like he is gone he has disappeared - is this his way of trying to get me to get over him? ... not really a good idea .. i wish i had answers instead of tons of questions and ideas going through my mind ..... so many what if's .. so many what nots..i came up this little poem ..not sure if im going to finish it but ill just let the words flow ..

.. i wonder whose hair you're smelling as you sit and watch tv ..
whose hands your carresing as you walk down the stree..
whose lips you kiss and whose eyes you look deep into ..
who you will be making love with tonight & every night ..
.. i wonder if you;re riding into the sunset
visiting places along the way
clearing your mind
finding peace within you soul ...
i wonder if you're dealing with all you've been through
accepting losses and grasping with reality ..
.. i wonder what goes through your head , what your feelings say ..
whether your happy inside and out or just happy about ..
is your spirit at ease your soul at peace ...
.. i only wonder because i care .. care for that person
whose ingrained in my mind .. in my heart ..
... i wonder cos i worry .. and miss them too ..
i wonder and i wonder till i slowly fall asleep ...
copyright 2006 groovy island girl :)

i think thats it for now .. my sleepy lol .. maybe ill add more maybe i wont but for now thats it .. im experiencing brain freeze - the thought process needs some rest .. so nite nite .... blog ya later .....