Warm Smile .... Piercing Gentle eyes

This was a story that I wrote last year … I don’t know why but I felt like sharing it – it’s a story about Dhelia and what she hopes for. Dhelia is a fictional character though the story is quiet real .. Anyways here is the story of Dhelia in her quest for mr warm smile & piercing gentle eyes …. with it is the song that inspired it all & reminded her of him ..

Bruised is what Dhelia feels today.. she thinks to herself if he doesn’t feel the same way about me that does not mean he hs the right to make fun about my feelings for him. In spite of how she was feeling she kept her smile on and pretended that she didn’t see what he wrote. She went on with him as if nothings happened …. ..

….. Warm Smile .. Piercing Gentle eyes …

Oh its impossible Dhelia thought to herself. He could never love me or ever want too. We are from two different worlds. Next to him I am just a nobody she thinks to herself as she looks at his pictures. His smile melts her heart.. He makes her smile like no one ever could as cliché as that may sound. How could someone so perfect not be in the perfect situation she wonders? He is everything yet so out of grasp. She knows he is in demand. Capable of finding women – sometimes she feels women just drop at his feet like flies (not the best of comparisons) but highly likely the truth.. Yes he has everything.. How could anyone not love she said softly as she runs her fingers across his picture tracing his face .. She gently kisses the picture and tells him how much she loves him – something that he doesn’t like to hear but he wasn’t there to hear her say those words then. She believes that it is important to tell someone that you love them even if they don’t say it back or feel that way. But in recent days she has resisted. She has kept her feelings and emotions under wraps tho she flirts with him occasionally.. He is obviously oblivious to her true feelings for him at this time…

He sent her pictures of sunsets today.. Something he always said reminded him of her. He thought about her when he saw them – but now she wonders if they still do. The sunsets were gorgeous nothing she has ever seen before, her mind then drifts …. How wonderful she thinks if they could catch sunsets together.. Sitting by the beach, or somewhere in the desert, just the both of them holding hands. Looking at sunsets admiring the beauty that God has so graciously given them. She felt a longing for him and she felt her tears run down her cheeks – if only she thought..

She clearly misses him. His piercing eyes never leaves her.. His smile . All play so vividly in her mind. He seems to consume her mind even in sleep..

The day changed in her part of the world .. Night time turned to early morning a new day amidst the late hour. 240am she though I should be asleep as he is know .. she remembers how he looks like when he sleeps . she smiles. He looks so peaceful. She feels herself caressing the side of his face as he falls into a deep slumber sweet soldier resting admists mortars and flying bullets.. she then realizes he is not by her side .. she holds her tears back in .. fighting the feelings … He doesn’t like me crying.. I cant cry she thought. She fights it hard for his sake..

She lays back and started to think good thoughts of him.. as she does so a song comes on the radio.. the song that took her back to reality.. the song they loved.. one that soothed them both.. The words of the song struck a cord with her ..she wanted to do those things for him .. be by his side..

She remembered him saying .. “ someday some lucky guy will get to experience this “ she asked him what .. he said this song .. some lucky guy will get to experience, the words, the meaning of this song with you . she just smiled when he said that .. in her heart she says I want that lucky guy to be you ..

She drifts back to the present ….

She knows its not to be .. Though she holds on to that, she feels that holding on to hope isn’t such a bad thing too because sometimes that’s all a person has …

©me.iffa.February 2006