i need to vent!!!!!!!!then i deleted it

so i deleted this - .. i dont see the point in being reminded of what have been done to you or said about you and how you have been made to feel knowing that down the road they will do it again and when even you put your foot down - you cant help but feel guilty later. it seems at the initial state of it you think wow did i just do that only to have the guilt and feeling that you are hopeless slowly creep back to claim its territory. Let them say what they want and let them send it out to other family members - you know yourself and thats all that matters but i know some people know me better ... that i am still a little bumbed out but i am sure i will find something to change all this ... - so with that said i am off to happier things ... my little entry printed sealed and locked in a box of things i would like to forget .. because people who make you feel small are actually insecured themselves in this case well never mind ..........