Ramblings @ 4am ...

....... when the rain falls the downpour doesnt stop, just like life & its little suprises good or bad ... i could say that for the things that have taken place and are currently ongoing.....

.........4am on an early Friday morning. i hear my neighbours getting up - getting ready for work or school.. Me i havent been to bed at all. I cant sleep. I wish i could cos i would like some rest. I have to be up in 4 hours .. School starts at 930 thank god for that or else id be one sleepy teacher more sleepier than the kids i think ... I think tonight i am just afraid to sleep for reasons that could make your hair stand on end and there are of course other reasons that come into play. Seeing i cant sleep i laid in bed attempting to sleep but to no avail - even staring at the ceiling is no fun. When you are restless nothing seems to be worth the effort. i lit candles so the room has a nice feel to it .... romantic , relaxing ... inspiring ... Sleep is not exactly a friend these days .. ive been known to stay up late but i do have my days of actually sleeping early. These days i just dont know. Anyways i had some random thoughts playing in my mind figured id just post them down ......

• pictures hold so much memories. They tell a dozen stories. They trigger an emotion, a memory & the craving that comes with that is overwhelming. You do miss the times that the stories tell. When i look at the picture of 'C' i see someone whom i miss dearly when things were as complicated when it was alright. I miss those times as i miss him everyday seeing the hour of seperation is closing in ....
• i need to sleep but i am too wired to do so... 4am n still functioning but thank god its friday. hopefully i can catch up with some sleep. I suprise myself at my ability to function the next day.. maybe i am a freak tho i know some people who would agree with me here....
• when your left eye twitches it means you are going to cry according to some superstitious beliefs - i think for some its a tried and tested experience as in when your right hand twitches means you are going to get money - its an Asian thing. We are a diversed society with a whole lot of beliefs which i must say life pretty interesting living where i am - even though we are a pretty modern society much of its tradition are being kept alive - you have to know your roots yes? .......
• I am giggling right now over my 2 yr old niece's fear of bananas. Its just the cutest little thing well then again it so fits her she is the cutest little thing...After finding out about my niece's fear of bananas i am thinking bananas in pyjamas would not appeal to her. Its probably normal for kids to have phobias for bananas but it struly something new to me. Never in a million years would i think a child to be afraid of it. my 2 year old niece seems to be .. she would run away and hide when someone is eating a banana and taunts her with it .... She has covered her face and ran away from the scent of bananas ... yet she loves banana fritters .. just how cute is that ..
• Chocolate fudge sundaes, ben & jerrys brownie fudge ice cream, Lindt intense orange dark chocolate with almond & orange zest bits , vanilla ice cream with caramel sauce, rich french vanilla ice cream, haagen daaz macadamanian (however u spell it) nut brittle ......hahha i am craving for them lolol .. and lord knows it would do wonders to my hips hahahaha but i dont care .. note to self: self indulgence is not a sin ... heehee..