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....................... i have done some things in my life that i have regretted and i am having to live with that everyday ... i always think if i had done things diffrently - if i hadnt said things if i didnt feel what i do then i would be feeling this way .... ........

but what can i do .. i fell inlove and yes i still love him - sigh .... sometimes it feels like it was the wrong thing to do ,,, i dont know what to make of anything but this is just one of the many things that play in my mind day in and day out ...

i would give anything - anything to have things back the way they were between us ..... and i mean anything ....... to get back the times when things were simple and uncomplicated when we had so much fun .... i dont know what to do now ......... you think things will get easier everyday but it seems to be getting tougher... you miss them more .. you wish for them more ..... in other words you want everything back the way they were ... and sometimes you wonder that its too much to ask?